Patience

Once in a while I have a bit of a challenge with patience. Like now :)

So, I'll look at the positive and continue on with the work I've been given which allows me to take care of my responsibility to my ex and our children. Though I doubt that's the way they perceive it.

6 weeks. In 6 weeks I'll be free. 100%! Every last payment on the support will have been made. In full.

Then the dentist and I will get to know each other much better... AND I'll be playing more golf. And someone will think that selfish.

I'll be grateful. Patience is worth it. I am worth it.

What Somebody Says About Me

What somebody says about me - Doesn't Make Me Who I Am!

If God is for me - who can be against me?

I wasn't about to come strolling into the "rooms" under my own power. Therefore it was an Act of Providence that I'm sober today and every day since the beginning. Which means being sober is a gift from a God I misunderstood a long, long time. A gift that, in my heart, I did NOT believe I deserved. And yet it happened.

So, should I let the words of a man or woman, in judgment of me, make me what I am? I don't think so and I won't allow that to happen anymore...

Thank God for sponsees... pidgeons... :)

Rehabs Eh?

OK MC... great topic :)

Simply put (thanks to Sean A. from L.A.);

"Rehabs and Detoxes have a purpose. That purpose is DISCOVERY! Alcoholics Anonymous also has a purpose. That purpose is RECOVERY!"

Rehabs and Detoxes are NOT AA and AA is NOT a rehab or a detox.

The answers are in the damn book! And if you don't like me because I got it from the book? Guess who's problem that is?

Have a great day :)

Doggone It! MC!!!

There's a story I cannot remember well... about this guy who has serious doubts about God and asks God to send him a sign while he's standing in the middle of a field.

So... he ignores the soft breeze, ignores the butterfly that lands on his shoulder and some other obvious signs that God heard him and is sending the signs he requested. Trouble is the guy doesn't SEE them!

So... I get this unmoderated comment from an old friend telling me she's gonna take my link off her side bar - and it hurts. OK MC, you hit the right "spot." I've hurt enough folks in my life and despite the fact that you and I only "know" each other through these blogs, I still don't want to give you any pain.

I'm ok. When b5media dropped my blogs I was so very discouraged... I tried to carry on here but lost something.

I'm still a happy member of the Southside group in Savannah, Georgia. I am the GSR of my group. I was very excited with the commitment in the beginning, not so much today. But it has helped me grow... and for that I am grateful.

My personal situation with my kids hasn't changed one iota in the last year. Just another year of nothingness. My personal life has also remained exactly the same. Disappointing and also discouraging. Don't get me wrong - I put a lot of effort into changing and God continues to have His plans which seem never to coincide with mine. It is a huge challenge.

But - that's it - for now. MC, if you have to do what you need to do but please, know that I do NOT want you to feel any pain on my account. Please...